Time, the clock is ticking. I'm wasting my time away. Myra, what are you doing?! What have you been doing? The past, the present, the future; yesterday, today, tomorrow. What is my future if i dont work on my present? Why are you trying so hard to be someone else, who are you trying to please? & now all i can feel is the real-ness of what i have been faking. Time is like a monster that cannot be reasoned with. It responds like a snail to our impatience and races like a gazelle when you can't catch your breath.I find it so hard, i need to stop. We are playing this game, this race. I'm chasing after you while someone is running after me, i can't reach you.

What and how am i suppose to know what you are thinking when you never ever tell me anything. You know what i am like, angsty( i'm working on that), impulsive, paranoid so why do this to me?!

Haha, haven't blogged for a long time. @adeela, no i didn't ditch this blog, you all did. (: ilyyy! Miss you guys so much.

The june holidays are over, in a flash. Even though i was wishing for an extension, still am. Hahaha. The holidays were great, awesome. I moved on from one to another. Sorry, i wasnt playing on your feelingsssss! Rmun ecosoc2 09 is awesome, the best council and i will never ever forget you all and the three days +++++ ever. Not everything was perfect in that one month, was feeling down sometimes. There were days that i didnt perform well at training but i think in the course of this month, i had brain energy booster! Haha, in other words, i am able to think more. Jk! I just felt like as though i grew up, more sensible, more confident. You may beg to differ but i think i did. Also i managed to catch up with some friends, sadly not all of them. There's lizzie and sarah heah, i'm so sorryyyy! We should go out for yogurt soon. Then there's mariann who would be number 1 forever! I know you havent been feeling up(?!) all this time, take care and please know that i would always be there for you too. Heh, i would also like to apologise (no idea what for) probably my annoying-ness, my stupidity(i am so not stupid). Definitely have no idea what i am talking about but just sorry okay?! Ily<3! Right, then there's david and li ke; thanks for always being there for me, listenng to all my bullshit comma randomness comma retarded remarks comma(breathe, wow long sentence) my bimbo moments comma sharing my happiness comma advising me comma having me looking at my unfortunate moments as a blessing in disguise comma giving constructive advices!!!!! Ily all! There's more, but i think i really should stop now! -smile smile- A great sense of satisfaction is overwhelming me. There's an urgent need for me to start organising my things and getting my priorities sorted out. I don't know where to start but for now i think i'm just going to take a nap. For the past few days, i have been sleeping for only 4-5 hours a day and what's worse is that, i was sleeping n the floor!! Yes, i almost forgot to say this, i'm in diving now. Diving, tom daley, diving, ali ospan, diving, me, diving, china team so cool, diving, so awesome, diving, i love diving! I have to do this very one thing right, no more giving up halfway! This is starting out really well, next would be homework! Math, chem, bio, chinese, s.s, history here i come! I will not neglect you anymore. I'm totally getting fired up, good! Now for my nap. Ttfn whoever is/would be reading this. (you probably wouldnt last through my boring rantings but wait till, i start updating with juicy scandals) You wish. :D

"Am i worth it then?"