myraa

2009-07-20T22:52:00.000-07:00

Just think about it-energy cant be destroyed, only converted into something different. So when a person dies, where does the energy go?
It makes sense,if you think about it.

The emotional energy that comes from a tragedy impresses itself onto a scene-a rock, a house, a tree- as if it's leaving a memory. At the atomic level, all those things are moving, so they can store energy. And when living people see ghosts, they are seeing the residue of energy that's still trapped.

2009-07-14T08:41:00.001-07:00

Gosh, I'm extremely touched with all your care and concerns when I'm at one of the downs of life. I'm really thankful that in place of something so screwed up, there are you guys. Ily<3 from the bottom of my heart.

I just don't get it anymore, what exactly is life about?

And I used to talk
With honest conviction
Of how I predicted my world
I'm gonna leave it to to star gazers
Tell me what your telescope says

Oh what is in store for me now?
It's coming apart

I know that it's true
'cause I'm feeling my way through the dark

Try to find a light on somewhere
Try to find a light on somewhere
I'm finding I'm falling in love with the dark over here

-Mariann Lim

Thanks<3!>

I had an interview today though I aint sure if they will put me up on the newspaper. After all, quoting someone, "you are not putting in enough effort in your training" when I'm trying so shitass hard. I had fun with diving team, shopping for team swimsuit and swim stuff @ half price. Kelly's a great inventor, chloe's a super good diver(!), xinmin has such a sexy body (sounds so damn wrong), Emily is so cute(!). School's been a bitch to me. Now, I have to start making this bitch like me, I'm working on it~ I'm working on it.

"This isn't the time for it."

2009-07-12T05:59:00.001-07:00

Where did i go wrong again?

Boo, i'm so tired! Mariann and shaun is bullying me againz! Unfortunately, yes i do get bullied by people like THEM! I went to watch kimberly's performance with sze en's family, celeste's family, rachel and her mom, geraldine and her mom. Yup, I MISS YOU RACHEL! Hahaha, you still look so cute and i see that your great sense of humour is still intact with all those trgs. Go for yog! (You are an awesome babes! BGFL! Gila can go to gila yog x)) Aakash sends great songs, ty! Concert yesterday at victoria theatre was great and i had fun poking fun at those guards. We were so mean! Mental block now, there were so much things i wanted to say this morning but soon forgot. Oh well, that means that i have to end here. At least i'm starting to update my blog, hopefully this lasts.

"therefore i would like to say that i dont owe anyone an explanation"

Ann's number one, becuz she is.

2009-07-11T00:22:00.000-07:00

Time, the clock is ticking. I'm wasting my time away. Myra, what are you doing?! What have you been doing? The past, the present, the future; yesterday, today, tomorrow. What is my future if i dont work on my present? Why are you trying so hard to be someone else, who are you trying to please? & now all i can feel is the real-ness of what i have been faking. Time is like a monster that cannot be reasoned with. It responds like a snail to our impatience and races like a gazelle when you can't catch your breath.I find it so hard, i need to stop. We are playing this game, this race. I'm chasing after you while someone is running after me, i can't reach you.

What and how am i suppose to know what you are thinking when you never ever tell me anything. You know what i am like, angsty( i'm working on that), impulsive, paranoid so why do this to me?!

Haha, haven't blogged for a long time. @adeela, no i didn't ditch this blog, you all did. (: ilyyy! Miss you guys so much.

The june holidays are over, in a flash. Even though i was wishing for an extension, still am. Hahaha. The holidays were great, awesome. I moved on from one to another. Sorry, i wasnt playing on your feelingsssss! Rmun ecosoc2 09 is awesome, the best council and i will never ever forget you all and the three days +++++ ever. Not everything was perfect in that one month, was feeling down sometimes. There were days that i didnt perform well at training but i think in the course of this month, i had brain energy booster! Haha, in other words, i am able to think more. Jk! I just felt like as though i grew up, more sensible, more confident. You may beg to differ but i think i did. Also i managed to catch up with some friends, sadly not all of them. There's lizzie and sarah heah, i'm so sorryyyy! We should go out for yogurt soon. Then there's mariann who would be number 1 forever! I know you havent been feeling up(?!) all this time, take care and please know that i would always be there for you too. Heh, i would also like to apologise (no idea what for) probably my annoying-ness, my stupidity(i am so not stupid). Definitely have no idea what i am talking about but just sorry okay?! Ily<3! Right, then there's david and li ke; thanks for always being there for me, listenng to all my bullshit comma randomness comma retarded remarks comma(breathe, wow long sentence) my bimbo moments comma sharing my happiness comma advising me comma having me looking at my unfortunate moments as a blessing in disguise comma giving constructive advices!!!!! Ily all! There's more, but i think i really should stop now! -smile smile- A great sense of satisfaction is overwhelming me. There's an urgent need for me to start organising my things and getting my priorities sorted out. I don't know where to start but for now i think i'm just going to take a nap. For the past few days, i have been sleeping for only 4-5 hours a day and what's worse is that, i was sleeping n the floor!! Yes, i almost forgot to say this, i'm in diving now. Diving, tom daley, diving, ali ospan, diving, me, diving, china team so cool, diving, so awesome, diving, i love diving! I have to do this very one thing right, no more giving up halfway! This is starting out really well, next would be homework! Math, chem, bio, chinese, s.s, history here i come! I will not neglect you anymore. I'm totally getting fired up, good! Now for my nap. Ttfn whoever is/would be reading this. (you probably wouldnt last through my boring rantings but wait till, i start updating with juicy scandals) You wish. :D

"Am i worth it then?"

2009-05-19T04:48:00.001-07:00

Everything can fail you except god. I agree, totally. Haha. I need to lose weight! D: I'm serious, not kidding and stop telling me i'm skinny because i'm not. SERIOUSLY. I walked back to school with mariann all the way from island creamery, its like our next big(retarded) thing. Haha. So awesome huh.

Because they asked, who in the right mind would walk all the way from island creamery and back to school. We stared them in the eyes and raised our hands screaming, me! Me! Btw this was not our first time.:D

"Just another pretty thing without a heart"

2009-05-15T06:41:00.000-07:00

The great singapore sale is coming up! Yay, and rmun is tmrw! Had sc dsa promo, wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be. I hope that all the girls would be coming to sc gym! I'm going to grow fat infront of the computer! I should definitely get up and start exercising. Dying, dyinggg to catch night at the museum 2! Who wants to go with me?

On the other hand, someone just totally pissed me off over an unreasonable issue! Man, go get a life and stop being so naive. Okay, i'm so mean. But seriously, totally ruined whatever mood i had today and got me so upset.

"Why something that felt so incredibly right could be undeniably wrong"

2009-05-14T07:08:00.000-07:00

Tee hee, Ryan higa is sooo cute. Seriously! Better than zac efron (TAKE THAT, mariann!) Omgoosh, hahahaha plus he has a great sense of humour. So what happened to me today? Woke up and felt like crap, had math(hopefully, hopefully! full marks ftw :D) and ss test, had to see the doctor. Yup, good news and bad news: i can't train for a long long while. Why?: hemstring injury, ouch. AMERICAN IDOL! NOW NOW NOW! Hahaha.

"i am three shades shy of dead"

Saturday, i'm presenting at 9. :( Yeah at nine. But all the awesome people will be there. :D

2009-05-13T05:07:00.001-07:00

Okay, i officially declare that my life is so over, so screwed. D: But i don't think i'm the one with the serious issues here.

'screw you bitch, i'm the pretty little thing here"

For the record, i've never been feeling better. Well, except for when my mood just took a deep dive, a deep deeeeeeep one. Sigh. What did i do today? OH DARN IT, THERE'S STILL SC DSA PROMO THING TO BE DONEEE! ><>

The question to be is: should i?

2009-05-09T19:11:00.000-07:00

FINALLY. :D